What Is A Grudge?

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One day not long ago I realized that I do hold grudges. I mean it was all of a sudden. I said something to my husband, and it was in front of my face. I had always thought I did not hold grudges and was very forgiving. But NOT true.poem holding a grudge by laura

Then after I wrote this poem I had to think about it for a while. Why do I hold grudges and what is a grudge? I will go over what I  realized in this article.

What is a grudge?

When I looked up the definition of grudge, I liked what the Urban dictionary said best in the first sentence.

“A feeling of anger or resentment that you hold onto at a specific person for something they did that angered you in the past.”

Okay, I have been doing this all of my life. I think someone did something to me and I don’t want to see them again. Not only do I want to stay away from them but I talk about them (to my husband mostly), and I want to make sure he knows why I don’t like so and so. I go on with this for years.

It wasn’t until recently I realized what I had been doing. But now that I know, I need to figure out why I would justify an act such of this one and get a better understanding of what is a grudge.

Why do I hold a grudge?

I think I am protecting myself against more hurt. My hairdresser couldn’t work me in for a hair cut. I was OK with this, but I did have to go to another person. My hairdresser was upset with me and treated me poorly when I saw her. So instead of addressing the issue, I decided I didn’t want to talk to her either.

It hurt that she would be angry with me for doing what I needed to do. I became mad at her for being mad at me and so on. You see what a vicious cycle that was.

But on the other hand, I was harmed by a person in my life. It didn’t bother them that they hurt me, but I was forever scarred by the incident. I stayed away from them, but I did need to tell my story over and over. It hurt that the person didn’t think they did anything wrong. I was angry that I had to deal with this situation, but they did not care that I was angry. They needed to pay for what they did to me. I was protecting myself.

But I wasn’t protecting me because this person died and could not harm me, but I didn’t let it go. I thought that if I continued on that meant they were paying for the wrong they did to me.

Do you see the difference in these two situations? One is harmless, and the other is harmful. I held a grudge for each one to protect myself.

The second part of this definition comes into play when it says: “Normally, People have good reasons to hold a grudge, although sometimes they are irreasonable.”

Is there a good reason to hold a grudge?

“Normally, people have good reason to hold a grudge?” WHAT? Is there a good reason to be unkind and unforgiving? Even in the worst of situations, I am not sure there is. So why do I hold a grudge? Am I beginning to understand what is a grudge?

I believe I am entitled not to like someone. Yes, this is true. But am I allowed to talk about, gossip and belittle someone because my feelings are hurt? NO! Am I entitled to hate them because they perpetrated a violent crime against me? NO!

One of these reasons is so much worse than the other. But to hold a grudge will harden your heart and not harm the other person. You may justify the animosity by saying if you let go they will hurt you again. Or you believe you have to keep remembering what happened so you can be on guard at all times.

These statements may be true except to hold a grudge for any reason at all will harm you. There are other ways to deal with the pain and inflictions of another.

Safety

Let’s take a step back a minute. You do have to make sure you are safe. But that is not the same as holding a grudge. You need to distance yourself from the person. Do not allow yourself to be in a situation that is harmful. Run when your gut tells you to and take legal action when necessary.

These are physical. But the safety issue that we usually feel a need to protect is in our minds. You keep remembering the situation and when you do you have fear. You have made sure you are physically safe, but in your mind you still have doubt.

Now is the time to determine if your fear will physically harm you. Is the person directly in an area to cause you harm or is the fear causing you to have this feeling. Usually, it is the fear that something will happen again. This fear releases a fight or flight response, and you stay on high alert all the time.

When you hold a grudge, you are protecting your mind and feelings from further harm. But the situation is past, and no one is near to hurt you.

What will you do?

My answer is forgiveness. I believe I am getting a better understanding of what is a grudge. It is unforgiveness. When you forgive you are letting go of all of the situations and giving it to God. You are not forgiving someone soman head bowed hands folded

that the other person will pay. You forgive for you so that your heart can heal. You are giving up your right to make sure someone else pays for what they did.

Why would you give up your right? Because when you hold onto the pain, hurt and entitlement you are causing yourself to lose love, kindness and to harden your heart against growth.

Is this hard to do? Absolutely you bet it is. In our mind, we believe that someone needs to pay. They took away your rights. They set up fear in your life and memories that you will always have to live with. They are bad, and you are right.

Here are some scriptures that may help you soften your heart and know that God is in control and you no longer have to make sure all is well.

Mark 11:25
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”

When you ask for God’s forgiveness, he is willing to forgive you and not remember what you have done wrong. He makes it very clear that when you ask for this forgiveness, you must forgive other first. He is doing this for you. He does not want you to harm yourself more by holding unforgiveness toward another.

2 Corinthians 5:10
“For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil.”

You hold a grudge and do not forgive to make another pay for what they have done to you. God says he will judge all alike. The person who holds the grudge will be in contempt of God’s word the same as the one who committed the wrongful act.

Then it is time to let go and let God handle the situation. You may not see the other person punished for the wrong they did to you. You may go to your grave thinking someone has not paid the price. But the word of God assures that he will take care of it all.

Forgiveness is letting go of the grudge.

Today is the day for you and me alike to stop holding a grudge. Protect yourself physically but do not try to make another pay for their sins against you. When you do this, you are reigning judgment down on yourself.
Forgive and watch your hard heart melt away. See your world soften, and the stress of what you have put on yourself will be gone forever. This is the true definition of what is a grudge.

Please leave any questions or comments in the comment section below. I will be back with you very shortly.

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8 thoughts on “What Is A Grudge?”

  1. This is a super helpful article that I’m going to be sending to a lot of people that I know.  I normally don’t hold grudges, but I know plenty of people that do, and it’s not a healthy thing to do.

    I know my ex- holds a grudge about me super tight, and I wish he would let go because it will make co-parenting so much easier.

    Do you have any suggestions on how to help him let go of that grudge for me?

    • Carmen, You can not help him let go of a grudge. He is making the choice to hang onto it and he is hurting himself in the process. He is harboring hatred and harming his relationship with his children. 

      My suggestion is for you to forgive, forgive and forgive. We tend to pick unforgiveness back up all the time. Even though he is the one with the grudge it affects you and when you forgive you are letting go and he will have to deal with his feelings. 

      All the best to you. I know it is really hard on all of you that are involved. 

  2. Grudges is a very negative emotion to express. As humans, peoples are bound to offend us or hold grudges against us. As children of God, we should lend to forgive others as God in heaven forgives us. When we hold grudges, it leads to other negative reactions like malice and hatred which is a sin.

    • You are so right. The word of God says to forgive those who have sinned against you just as your father in heaven has forgiven you. It is a continual process because as the bible also says, we are all sinners. 

      So to forgive is to let go and to pray for those who hold malice against us and for ourselves if we are the one holding the grudge. 

      Very good points you have brought up. 

  3. A grudge does not hurt the person who caused you to have a grudge. It only hurts you. The absolute way to handle a grudge is to pray God’s blessings for them and the ones they love.

    During my life I have found myself begrudging another person’s financial or social success. This is something I have to reason out in my mind and realize it is not their fault I haven’t reach the preeminence they enjoy – it is my fault alone. I ask God to forgive me for my lack of ability and to give me the power to forgive myself.

    I love your poems and post, thank you so much for the inspiring me each week.

    • Ray, thank you so much. Yes forgiveness for ourselves and asking God for forgiveness is the only way to let it all go. I like the way you say that it is not the fault of another person but my fault alone. This rings home for me.
      Ray I do enjoy inspiring you but more I love seeing you here every week. Again thank you for all of your love and support.

  4. Hi Laura
    If people hold grudges it sucks the energy out of them not the person the grudge is aimed at
    Here is a story
    2 monks were taking a walk and on the walk they were not permitted to talk to each other.
    They came to a river where they were to cross and the woman was struggling to cross the river so one of the monks offered to help her and carried her to the other side and wished her well.
    The 2 monks carried on with their walk and 5 hours passed when one of the monks said to the monk who had carried the woman
    “Why did you talk to that woman when we are meant to walk in silence?”
    The monk replied,” I put her down 5 hours ago so why are you still carry her?”
    Letting go is the best solution as we sometimes can’t change what has happened but to carry a grudge is a heavyweight 🙂
    Love and blessing

    • Hi Vicki, This is a great story to help bring home how heavy a grudge is. Thank you so much for your input. I love it. Yes, a grudge will wear you out and I have experienced this first hand.

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